Cheeky Chatty

So, here I am attempting another act...in the nude.  Sometimes I'd like to think certain things do not have such an effect on me, but that's just my delusional thinking.  However, late at night when I'm sitting on my couch deep in thought, accompanied by the TV, Internet, and sounds of the neighbors and of the night, my walls crumble down.  Fear, anxiety, and a surge of excitement cluster my brain cells.  My strategies that I once revelled in dissipates, and I am left with doubt, and find myself standing on a path that has split itself.  Either path is evenly filled with sacrifices, tenacity and compromises. While standing at the crossroads, all I am reminded of is 18 long months of fighting for common ground.  Yet, all of it has manifested into this moment, for the better.  Along with the worries, there are comforts.  Along with  fear, there is a sense of rebirth...and constant sanity check.  Unfortunately, through all the fighti...

There was  as sort of feeling that arose from today, and it could have been that spring has finally sprung and the cold weather will stay away. But whatever it was, for ever it may be, I felt an ease that will last what futuristically felt eternally. Sometimes I lie dormant, calm...happy, and then comes a jubilant moment where life seems clear, and I understand why things must be. In this panoramic view I can see you, me, we, and the intrinsic design of Aum...respectively. *Today is far from spring, but the emotion resurfaced nonetheless.